Posted by: 2in10 | 05/16/2010

Swim to shore

Yesterday I stopped by the small (and I mean very small) Whole Foods (then it was a Bread & Circus) where I shopped for healthy food when I had ovarian cancer. I found myself getting choked up, as I recalled being there on the first morning I was out in public with no head covering. Chemo treatments were over and my hair was beginning to come in. It was very short, not quite half-an-inch. My son, then age 14, had said, “You look great, Mom. Go for it,” so I did. The cashier told me she loved my haircut, and that made me feel great.

It’s been a long time since I have gone back in time to that transition from treatment to “ever after.” I recall how delicate was the emotional balance between being grateful treatment was over and being insecure that I was without my lifeboat. It was time for me to swim, and how far and how rough the water, only time would tell.

The results were good from surgery and chemo, but to cope with uncertainty I vowed I would do whatever I could to get well and stay well. The chemotherapy had worked well, but I believed my body needed time and help to recover from such strong medicine.

I believe today that when one is doing well is the best time to embark on a healing path, and I would love to hear what you are doing to stay well.




  1. Hi Carolyn,

    Wise words, as always. I found that after the surgeries (three down, one to go) and especially chemo, it was important for me to actively reclaim my health rather than waiting for it to return. After chemo, it was really hard to go on those first tentative and very short walks, but that was exactly what I needed. And the short walks got longer and longer much more quickly than I would have thought.

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